What's wrong with me? I've gone to doctors and all they do is give me depression meds. HELP?!?!?

Get off ALL caffeine including tea, coffee, chocolate, red bull other sodas. Caffeine is one of the most damaging drugs and cause anxiety, odd thoughts, panic attacks, sleeplessness and depression. You will get a terrible headache and you should come off slowly but your depression and anxiety will disappear. Also, only uses soap and creams that are hypo-allergenic. Even using certain face creams can give you horrible side effects. Industry bombards us with chemicals that cause depression including medication. Try it. Live as cleanly and simply as possible and you will become completely well you won't believe it.